Tuesday, 4 March 2008

The Fear and Dream

For a moment, imagine what Nigeria would be like if it was a developed country. Still with this image in your head, try to picture it, with this time considering the industrious, creative and brilliant minds of Nigerians you know. For me, I picture that society; where the true talents and skills of its citizens are collectively harnessed for nation growth. My post is actually not what Nigeria could or might not be, but this post describes me as an aspiring writer and the realities I face. It is sad that most of our great minds-in this case writers- have achieved their dreams outside the shores of Nigeria. It is sad that most people, who have dreams outside the typical chain of jobs-doctor, engineer,lawyer and even barrister- have a higher chance of achieving these dreams outside the country. Fortunately, I'm privileged to be in a very structured and proper university (at least when compared to those we have back in Nig.). Prior to coming over to Canada, I always viewed writing as a hobby. But, on coming over here and observing the serious manner in which people take their skills, my perspective on writing changed. Now, writing to me is more than big and sweet sounding words or just telling stories, it means more.
I never had to question my authenticity as a writer before coming over to Canada.Back home in Nigeria, I've always being commended for my writing. But on getting to this very questioning society, one's motives for expressing this SKILL are questioned. At first, I never had a strong answer for this question, other than the usual answer of writing being a means for me to express those rioting thoughts in my head. However, I've come to realise that I do not have any strong answer, other than the fact that I just have to write. No matter what ones skills are, they have to be improved through training and experience. And this is what I intend to do. Although I'm in school for a Pre-medical course (SHIO!!!), writing is still in the front of my head. I'm planning on taking creative writing courses and meeting professors for their advice and suggestions.
The scary part of it all is the Fear. That creeping fear that the dream will not be reached, is sometimes hard to ignore. That fear that the realities of doing what is acceptable and profitable will deter one's dream, scares the hell outta me.
But I've come to this compromise, that I will struggle and work for this dream, that no matter what happens, I'll keep the dream alive.....

11 comments:

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

Ah, and that is the lesson we can all take away. No matter what happens, the dream stay alive. It is necessary to have vision for ourselves. It gets us through the tough times. Thanks so much for reminding me of this important lesson.


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Onyeka Nwelue said...

Afolabi, Afolabi!

Thank you so much for this post. We are the advocates of worse Nigeria. Simply because we do not appreciate our talents, the overseas audience do that for us. Good. Those of us who are stucked here in Nigeria will have to suffer and suffer and suffer. But I hope it's not my portion.

Afolabi said...

@ Onyeka--you're welcome. It shall not be our portions o!! From what I hear from those in the art or should I call it business, one's best option is just to keep on writing and getting one's work out there.

Today's ranting said...

Yup man, you gotta keep the dream.I'm also trying to improve on my writing skills awwww I wish I could write so well.

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